I just finished day 290 out of the 365 days. Last weeks were hard. I tried to keep this blog updated and forgot it almost every day on my personal own website. But I didn't forget it in the group, Facebookpage and Pinterest. So today I spent my time on updating this blog. I saw I made a mistake with the counting... I don't tell you but if you will find the mistake... congratulations!
A big step for me to let it be how it is. Normaly I would change everything or delete everything and start over. But this time I thought "what the heck". Not everything has to be perfect! One thing that I learned the last months. Not everything has to be perfect! A sentence that I I kept repeating for myself. I'm a kind of person that wants to keep everything under controle, all the things that I want to do or create has to be as I have it in my mind. If it doesn't work out or didn't succeed how I want it, I'll start over again. Or I work harder and longer till all the work is done how I want it. But in this project I learned to let the things, or better,let the photo's how they are. I'm still in a learning process. Everyone is still learning every day! If you don't learn anymore you miss something in life! And maybe you should try to find a different goal and challenge in your life... You shall see it makes a differents!
I learned how to deal with a customer that had got all the photo's from the shoot but didn't want to pay for them because they weren't happy with them... Okay that's it, new experience, new fase, new rules. And oh boy what are they happy with their free photo's, they even use them as profile photo on Facebook and show them online to everyone... terrible photo's! In the beginning I was angry, furious and sad. But after a while I started to laugh about it. Why? It's very simple... I learned that I have to stick by the rules! And publicity is publicity, they are showing my photo's online to everyone. By this photo's I already got new customers. Again a learning process!
With this perfectionistic way of living was my new lens a challenge. In the beginning it didn't give me the results were I was hoping for. But I practiced every single day and now I'm a Lensbaby addict!! I LOVE this lens and the optics! There are so many options and ways with this lens. One word... Amazing!
One of the reasons why I started this project is learning many things. Because I have to take a photo every single day and you don't want to do every day the same thing you have to be creative. Every morning I was, and still thinking "What should I shoot today?".
The other thing that I learned is don't search for the buttons on the camera, because at the time you find you setting the moment is gone! The first weeks I had to search for every setting. By doing this project you learn how to handle your camera. Now I don't even look anymore, I just do it!! Yeah!!
I also learned to watch to the light and what I can do with it. In the beginning I thought that only sunlight was good light... have you ever seen a photographer that only shoot in the bright sun? No shoots in the winter or evening? I don't!! So I learn to handle the light, every kind of light!
And the biggest lesson for me was finding myself in photography... in a different way... just do what I like and love. Don't compare myself to other photographers in the group or somewhere else. I always thought that I only want to do dog photography. But no, there is so much more. And I didn't want to shoot just some pics. No I want to think about it, I want to show people who I am, what I could do, create and what I love. I want to go to the point that people see a photo and think "Hey that's a photo of Chantal, I see it because this is her style". Wouldn't that be awesome!
So in this project I tried, and still try, every way of photography. And I already learned something about it. I never heard about double exposure or pinhole before... You can see it in my photo blog from the beginning till the point were we arrived today. I love, really love my Lensbaby! I love the effects, the moody way, the hazy looks and the creativity that you'll see back in all the pics. And I like black & white photo's! You can see the shadows better, the lights are different but nice and the expression in the faces are much better as in color. Color is nice, I love it with the colorfight shoots and flowers and macro. But black & white is still my favorite!
So people that are still thinking I'm just playing around with my camera... Just think about this blog... I'm not playing I'm learning with a lot of fun!